The Moonlight Gathering...
Jan..24..2000
So what's up? what the dilli yo? WoRd!
okay...that' s enough. I'm just a little happy that's all. Nothing to get worried about..(Brian) ... Well today was CoLD!! I wasn't liking that too much.Thomas came over and we went to the library to study for exams and then just to prove to him how CRAZY I REALLY was we went to Dairy Queen and I got a Blizzard. Yeah i know...stupid girl. But it was good.:)
EXAMS JUST SUK! seriously. I hate having to study so much ...more less for those dumb test we take that have mostly useless info. on them.
Somebody
wasn't at school today! Actually a few ppl weren't at school
today. Let see...
......Katie
......jason
......thomas
what was that all about? Anyway...i'm sure you all had a good
excuse. I know what Thomas's was ....But I haven't really heard
about anyone else. Well....if y'all are sick ....I hope you get
better soon. !! Atleast try.
"I'm learning more and more that love plus attachment equals pain." Lisa Bonet
January 25, 2000
~ ~ okay. well...what should I say. I know your probably thinking this is a little late to be starting a Journal but hey...what can I say?
Me and my boyfriend were talking yesterday in his car....and we got into this really cool conversation. It was one of the best one's I have had in a long time. I brought up something about some of my friends saying they were in love, and he came back with a pretty good story. His name is Thomas... but I will refer to him as "T" from now on. He said that when you tell a guy (especially @ age 15) that your in love with them make sure that he's ready for it and that maybe he feels the same way you do. what he told me was that when he was in 10th grade he was going out with a freshmen...and they had only been going out for about a month. Well she told him she loved him one day and then from that point on he kinda tried to drift away from her. He told me he wasn't ready for that kind of thing and that he just wanted to be able to have fun and all. Not have to feel obligated to a single person forever. That's what he said it felt like when she told him that.
~~So i guess basically I know not to say I'm in love with him. In fact the last boyfriend I had I "claimed" I was in love with. I never told him but I thought he was my first love. They say everyone has one. And that you'll know because even if you move on you'll still have the desire to be with that person and you'll still have a place in your heart for them. But there will always be room for someone new. I THINK that's what it means. Atleast that's what I have gotten out of all this.The last guy I went out with was Tyler Carneal. I thought he was the best thing since chocolate ice cream. But I never could talk to him like I wanted for some reason. I honestly understand now why we broke up. Took me long enough. He told me when he broke up with me (and yes he broke up w/ME) that we just didn't have anything in common and that our conversations were boring. Well of course I didn't listen to him then because I was still caught on the first thing he said which was I don't think we should go out anymore. Well now I realize how little we DID have in common. I don't think I could name one thing right now that we had in common besides music. Tell me if that's not SAD.
I guess after reading all this you could call me boycrazy. I'm really not though. I will admit ....I USED TO BE. But i'm not anymore . I just have a lot of guy friends. It's been like that my whole life. I mean, for as long as I can remember, I have always had more guy friends than girlfriends. It's just very rare for me to meet a girl and become close friends with them I guess. I don't know what's wrong with me. But I don't worry about it. I guess I could say if I ever had a boyfriend that physically hurt me then all my guy friends would be there for me through it all and probably kick his a * *. But that's just my opinion. But just so you don't freak I do have girl friends. And the one's I have.. well, let's just say we're all pretty close. My best friend in the whole world is Katie though. I'll also refer to her as "kt" in later entries. But we have been best-friends since the 7th grade. we are in 10th grade now and our friendship is still as strong as it was when it started out . I am sooo thankful for her being my friend . You have no idea.
January 26 2000
~~okay well this morning didn't start out to well. It's only 8:00am....but who cares. No one is up that i know of so this is a good time to right. Lert's see....I woke up with a runny nose.....and I can't really talk very well. I sound terrible. And on top of that my mom isn't letting me go anywhere. I was supposed to go to T's house today ....him his friend joe...and Joel ....all wanted me to come over so we could build and igloo. oooo.! fun. Then they can all watch me lay in the hospital bed next week with namonia.
NOW ...for the GOOD news. D ( aka: Dave....or Dave-o ) has a girlfriend. He's letting her share his site. Isn't that sweet. AAhhh! okay i'll stop. Her name is lizzy. You could probably find out more if you went to his site which I have a link to on my index page. I don't think she wants me giving out all sorts of info about her. It's just called respect. Well, now that I got that out of the way, there's not much more to write at the moment. I may update my "expressions" page if any of you are interested.
January 27, 2000
~~Well i did get to go to T's house yesterday after all. We had soooo much fun ! I wish i had my camera with me. I so need to start carrying it around. We were outside playing in the snow for six hours. I got to his house at about 12:00pm and we went in at 6:00. But today i am paying the consequences because i think i am losing my voice. But That's Okay!! *sarcasism* well,enough for now...i'll write later.
January 28, 2000
~~ Okay, well, i don't remember if i mentioned this in any earlier entries, but me and joe decided to through a Surprize party for T. It was cool. It wasn't exactly a surprize since he knew something was up, and because he cheated, by going to his back door and looking at everyone in the darn house. But i explained what happened there in my other journal. The more private one. T is gone. I got to see him this mornig before he left, not that i was too happy about that, but it wasn't that bad. He is going to Matanuten this weekened, and he is coming back monday. Did you know since me and him have been going out, we haven't been at school together. that boy just doen't go to school. And monday IF we go to school, then he won't be there either. UURRR. Ohwell. he gets out at 11:30 am every day anyways, so it's not like i get to see him all day. But still. then again not going to school is a little better because then we get to spend the whole day with eachother like we have been. We do everything. And since we are both Volleyball managers we are at games together too. But, now that he has a job i don't know how that's going to go. well, enough about thomas, i know you ppl s are going to try and kill me after reading all this so i'll stop.!! Luv You all!!
January 29 ,2000
Most intersting thing i did all day was go to kt's and help her with her hair n'stuff. And alisha was there too. we had fun. well, i did. then i went home and got bored again.
January, 30, 2000
Okay.....here we go. Back to school. Tomarrow is monday and well, so far there is no snow storm and the weather ppls said there won't be one anymore :( geepers. Tomarrow T comes home!! YEAH!! my hair is all curled right now, and it looks so cute with my dress on. I can't wait till Valentine's . watch it not even be formal. No, even worse. watch it snow thursday like there saying it's going to and us not get to have the dance. That would be soooo bad. I guess then all of us ppls will have to go to a fancy resturaunt just to make up for it so us girls can still where our dresses. hehehe.that would drive you guys nuts. *love it.*
okay kt, tonight you have to go to bed and not talk online until 2:00 in the morning. okay! Hey my friend B finally started updating his site, IT'S ABOUT TIME!! how long has it been....a year? well, anyway, I will put a link with the others when i get a chance. but I'ts late now, and i want to go to bed so that tomarrow comes faster. And you know what that means? I will get to see T sooner, and I will get to see the rest of my friends sooner, and blah, blah, blah.....Oh yeah! HI DAVE!!......okay, so i am like, really happy right now and i am just rambling on and on...so i guess i will go now. Once again...Luv You All!!
January 31, 2000,
Today is going by real slow.....i'm soooo not likeing it. But besides that everythings cool i guess. I hate drama though. We still have to do our exam plays and that totally sucks becuase now i HAVE to memorize the rest of my lines and make props and all that. UGH! on top of that we have another play thing to do on friday. oh by the way our exam play doesn't count as much as exams and we have to do it on wednesday.My partener for the one due on friday is Brandon Matarese. Oh joy. He just came to our class today.
Thomas isn't home yet, it's 2:25 pm and there is a volleyball game tonight at 6:00pm. He needs to take me to the school. either that or i will have to get a ride from daniel. We are playing Grafton tonight if anyone is interested and The game starts at 6 not 8 or 8:30. Okay? pple cant seem to get that straight for some reason.